I am ever so slightly frustrated! This weight loss thing is causing me to do a lot of reflecting. Why? because if you don't see results then something is not right! and that is where I am right now. Initially I saw a significant weight loss.......2.5 kg in the first two weeks. Now my weight is hovering between 89.2 and 90.5 kg.
I am also frustrated because my efforts at better eating have been hampered by a broken blender (thanks raw food diet) and now a broken Food Processor (thanks frozen bananas) So Dear Husband is not happy and I don't have the courage to ask whether or not I can buy a new blender.......yet!
I am NOT eating enough vegetables, I know that. Last night I watched a Kiwi Production on Foxtel "Downsize Me" and carefully analyzed the formula~ The guy on last night's episode did really well, he lost 13 kg in eight weeks. He ate very well though~ lots of salad and protein meals. My diet is not that good~ I am eating less, yes, but not eating as well.
I am annoyed with myself for not measuring myself at the start. I could be bashing myself needlessly as it is possible I have lost cm's, but I don't know for sure. I am not seeing drastic results with the fit of my clothes so am not convinced that is true. I do, however, see results when I stand naked in front of the bathroom mirror (not a pretty picture) I can see definition happening in my stomach area and weight loss in my backside.
I think the trouble is that I want results............quick results! One thing is for sure though. There is no giving up! what do I give up for? a return to a former fat girl with zero fitness levels, high blood pressure and a potential to get Diabetes and other weight related illnesses? No, the journey will continue and I will keep taking "stop and think" sessions throughout as I analyze the next stage of the journey. I am not going to allow apathy, negativity or any other thing to stop me!
I am also frustrated because my efforts at better eating have been hampered by a broken blender (thanks raw food diet) and now a broken Food Processor (thanks frozen bananas) So Dear Husband is not happy and I don't have the courage to ask whether or not I can buy a new blender.......yet!
I am NOT eating enough vegetables, I know that. Last night I watched a Kiwi Production on Foxtel "Downsize Me" and carefully analyzed the formula~ The guy on last night's episode did really well, he lost 13 kg in eight weeks. He ate very well though~ lots of salad and protein meals. My diet is not that good~ I am eating less, yes, but not eating as well.
I am annoyed with myself for not measuring myself at the start. I could be bashing myself needlessly as it is possible I have lost cm's, but I don't know for sure. I am not seeing drastic results with the fit of my clothes so am not convinced that is true. I do, however, see results when I stand naked in front of the bathroom mirror (not a pretty picture) I can see definition happening in my stomach area and weight loss in my backside.
I think the trouble is that I want results............quick results! One thing is for sure though. There is no giving up! what do I give up for? a return to a former fat girl with zero fitness levels, high blood pressure and a potential to get Diabetes and other weight related illnesses? No, the journey will continue and I will keep taking "stop and think" sessions throughout as I analyze the next stage of the journey. I am not going to allow apathy, negativity or any other thing to stop me!
June 25, 2009 at 3:27 PM
Okay my friend..time for a photo, methinks! lol Honestly if you can notice the difference when naked then let me tell ya, there is a difference!
I know it is frustrating (believe me, I know) but it's also steps FORWARD, is it not? So you're not yet perfect...so what??!!
My dear father has been here for 2 weeks. The first 5 days of him being here went well...but since then my eating/exercise life has been as bad as before! I feel like a sloth! I have not had a glass of water in over a week. Stopped my iron supps a few days ago...and have stopped eating.
Dad has such a focus on food that it drives me nuts. It takes all my time and energy to get a *quantity* meal on the table but it isn't *quality*.
I haven't exercised in over one week and can feel my body starting to seize up again. I just know that when he leaves I am going to get depressed bcz of what I have lost. But I'm going to try not to think that way.
So c'mon matey...you have done a great job so far and there are results- maybe not the ones you're looking for but there are fantastic results- both physically *and* mentally.
Keep It Up Sweetie!
June 25, 2009 at 5:16 PM
Oh thanks Susan!
I guess that life just goes on and sometimes diet and exercise don't fit in! Enjoy the time with your dad and just get back on track when he leaves. I spent too many years focusing on goals and forgetting about fellowship!
June 26, 2009 at 8:02 PM
Yeah I know...thanks.
Y'know I can already feel my body seizing up again? getting stiff and sore from lack of exercise. Oi voi for when I start up again eh?
June 26, 2009 at 8:02 PM
Are you on FaceBook?
June 27, 2009 at 4:17 AM
No, I have avoided Face Book because my children all have it and I just fear that It is too open for me. By that I mean that being an up front and honest person, I am scared to go on something that is so popular and say something I will regret later! Our entire church seem to be on it as do all my family and I just don't know if I am ready for that yet! There is a sweet anonymous kind of feel about a blog! (who am I kidding!)
June 27, 2009 at 7:43 PM
Exactly... who are you kidding but I also see your point, totally!